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So yesterday I wake up and “Amy Poehler” is the number one trending thing on Yahoo. It usually means one of three things when a woman is trending that high:

A). she is pregnant

B). she is getting married/divorced

C). she is going to be naked in something

Now, as a point of clarification, I love Amy Poehler. Not in the way the rest of you think you love Amy Poehler but in a way that is sacred and honest and mutual. I think we have a lot in common; she is a smart and sexy and one of the funniest people on the planet. These adjectives could also be fairly applied to me. And have been. By me.

Smart: I just assume she’s smart because she wears a suit on TV and I assume I’m smart because you don’t know what I got on my SATs an[d I”m very, good with punctuation?

Sexy: Just search an image of her. As for me? I have had sex with two women. Not at the same time. I’m not really sure how that works.

Funny: She carried SNL for two years and is the cornerstone of “Parks and Rec”, the funniest show on TV right now. As for me, once when my boss asked for a copy of my passport, I photocopied the front cover and he thought I did it on purpose. What?

Plus we are both from the suburbs of Boston and I think we can all agree that people from inside 128 shouldn’t marry those from without. Especially not GOB.

Since we all agree that Amy Poehler and I are made for each other, two of the three possible reasons for her trending on Yahoo work to my favor. If she’s having another kid, this is a minus since it will likely only further cement her bond with What’s-his-name? Her first husband?

If it is C, then, yeah, I’ll look then erase the history on my computer before my wife gets home.

But, if it’s B, we are in business. My wife was fully aware of two things when she married me: 1). this union is only a way-station until Amy comes calling and 2). I’m going to want alimony.

So immediately I close my kid’s door so I’m not bothered by his crying then click through to see why she is trending so high.

The headline did not read:

Amy Poehler to be naked in “MacBeth” remake! (she would be a great Lady MacBeth)


Amy Poehler is knocked-up! (the condition not a remake)


Amy Poehler leaving that guy for hot stay-at-home dad who doubled in his last at-bat in high school?

Because if it had I would have been furious it didn’t mention my rbi.

But instead was a link to something called Broad City, it was a video that was basically two women humorously running through the streets of New York in search of a cookie. About halfway through PoehlerBear joins them for a block then gets waylaid by a guy with some produce. Spoiler!

Not the funniest thing I’ve ever seen but I chuckled. So I give them another chance. I go to the Broad City website and watch a few shorts. This is where things turn for the worse. And I’m not blaming you, Amy.

One of these shorts is about how the women of Broad City act when they’re tending to their toilet at work. It’s funny enough but I watch it and forget about it.

The day passes and my wife comes home from work. She sits our three-year-old down and tells him he can watch Tow Mater from “Cars” on YouTube.

Wife: Ah, Michael? What is this?

Me: What?

On YouTube in the section marked “Recommended for You” are ten videos of women going to the bathroom.

My wife puts up with a lot from me. She never rolls her eyes when I insist that we abolish the phone book. She lets me tell people that cargo pants are a conspiracy from the cell phone companies. She indulges, what she refers to, as a “celebrity crush” on Amy Poehler (though I disagree with that terminology since I don’t consider myself a celebrity).

But apparently YouTube insinuating that my internet time is spent engaging in some sort of deviant fetishism is her breaking point. And, in her defense, the above story is pretty implausible especially if you tell it backwards. Though, perhaps, just so implausible as to prove it’s validity. Right?

So, in conclusion, my time on the internet is more or less over when I finish this email or my wife realizes I’m not in bed. Though I think she’s going to be pretty upset if she come down and finds me huddled in the dark at the computer.

Tell Amy Poehler that I love her and I regret nothing!


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The entry below is a novella.  It’s kind of obnoxious, I think it almost takes up the first page of the blog.  Hopefully Mike will write something soon that is shorter and more clever and get this blog back on track.

I should have posted it in segments. At any rate, it will explain why I hadn’t written anything new since February.

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Today I was thinking about evolution.  This is partly because of some of my own recent health drama, and also because I’ve had a lot of time off work lately and have been watching too much Planet Earth.

My health drama is a tale of auto immune disease (s).  Having an aunt, uncle and mother with Lupus, my family is no stranger to auto immune diseases.  Back in 2002, when I was preparing to leave Boston for graduate school and the sunnier climate of Los Angeles, I had the first serious health issue of my then twenty-six year old life.  I’d had a horrible stomach ache for days – I literally couldn’t eat or sleep. I was living at home with my parents at the time, and my mom came into my bedroom one night to say, “This is stupid; we need to take you to the hospital.”  Normally, I would have argued with her, 1) because I hate to be fussed over and 2) I am prone to disagree with my mother on principal. But, at that point, the pain was unbearable and I was exhausted, so I didn’t fight it.  At the local hospital’s ER, I ran into a girl I went to high school with, who was a nurse there. This should have sent me running, but again, I was in no state to protest anything.  They did blood work, shot me up with some Demerol, and admitted me to run tests, the whole while with this girl saying things like, “That’s your gall bladdah!! You’re gonna have to have surgery!”  She was really irritating, but after the pain killer set in, I faded into blissful oblivion, the first time I was able to sleep in three days. I’d never been admitted to the hospital before. The next day, they started a litany of tests, most of the time everyone thinking that it was, in fact, my gall bladder that would need to be removed because that’s where my pain was. But an odd thing happened. Nothing showed up out of the ordinary in my gall bladder on any of my x-rays, and the pain eventually subsided on its own after a few days, but from my initial blood work, my platelet count was showing up to be unacceptably lower than average.  For the record, platelets are the part of your blood that help you clot.  A normal count is somewhere between 150,000 and 400,000.  Mine were at about 40,000.  Anyone familiar with the world of medicine knows that when your blood work starts coming out funky, it can many any number of bad things.  So, cue even more tests, which led to the conclusion that I had an auto immune disease called ITP or idiopathic thrombocytopenic purpura.  ITP is a diagnosis of elimination, and you start to feel like you are living in an episode of House.  No one knows why ITP happens, but essentially, your body gets confused and treats your platelets as antibodies (like an infection) and starts killing them off.   At the time, the best way they could fix it was to put me on a massive dose of steroids (i.e., Prednisone) which did the trick.  However, Prednisone is a serious drug with some pretty evil side effects, so the next nine months of my life were no party.  They had started me on 100 mg (unheard of) and had to slooooowly taper me to zero over that entire time. But, I figured it out, and it started me on an endeavor of a fairly healthy life style (eating well and working out) that I still try to maintain.    I was actually fine and with a steady platelet count until early 2007. It was right after Christmas when I noticed petechiae covering my legs and feet.  This is a sign of a low platelet count – petechiae look like tiny red freckles and they are essentially burst blood vessels below the skin.  I went to the local Urgent Care, where they sent me for lab work; the lab lost my blood and I had to have it re-drawn. This whole ordeal took days, and the conclusion was that the doctor from Urgent Care called me personally on every number I had left them to tell me, “Your platelet count is 10,000.  Get to the ER as quickly as you can and don’t get into an accident.”  I ended up being admitted and was in the hospital for almost three weeks while they ran more tests (including a bone marrow biopsy – ouch).  During that time, my platelet count fell as low as 6,000 and I had a few transfusions of platelets and an immune globulin treatment called IvIg.  It took a good week for that treatment to kick in, and they almost removed my spleen (in some ITP cases, a splenectomy will actually cure a person of ITP since the spleen is often the culprit that is killing the platelets). I was freaking out and really not wanting surgery when I got the call from my doctor saying that my platelet counts were finally going up and I didn’t have to have the splenectomy. Phew!  Since that time, I have been monitored by my new hematologist, who is, hands down, the best doctor I’ve ever had. I LOVE him.  He’s the head of the Oncology/Hematology department at the hospital where I was admitted.    He just happened to be on call the night I went to the ER and took an interest in me and took me on as a patient – and he doesn’t normally take new patients because he’s so busy. But he’s like a dad and I know he truly cares about me and how I’m doing.    At any rate, all had been fine for years. I was down to seeing the Hematologist only once a year. I’d just had my annual appointment with him at the beginning of this past March and had a good report.  My platelets, which always run on the lower side of normal, were 141,000, which is perfectly ok for me. All was well!

Fast forward to a few weeks later.  It was a Tuesday night and I’d just gotten home from work. I ate something for dinner and was puttering around my apartment when I had a bizarre buzzing sensation in my head, followed by double vision. It was like someone hit a button and my head short circuited.  It was pretty freaky, and unsure of what else to do, I went to bed.   This probably seems like the stupidest possible reaction/solution, which I will readily admit it was, but in my defense, I’ve been really overdue for an eye exam and new glasses, so I figured it was just really bad eye strain.  I called my good friend in the morning (when I still had double vision) and she took me to the ER. The doctor (an A-hole) didn’t do an MRI, or a CT Scan, or admit me. He sent me to an ophthalmologist after getting me an appointment for four hours later that day. I went to see this woman and she did some tests and determined that I had to have an MRI (are there classes in medical school on How to State the Obvious?). I waited for my insurance to approve it and went to have my MRI two days later.  I am seriously claustrophobic, so I asked for an open-air MRI.  I’d managed to get this far in my life without ever having an MRI, so I didn’t really know what to expect.  I lied down and the x-ray tech put a metal thing over my face and I immediately started to cry.  She said, “Oh no, you’re already crying.”  And then she told me I could come back a different time and they could dope me up with all sorts of drugs. However, after having waited a few days just for this initial test, I decided to suck it up and just go for it.  At one point, she said over the microphone, “You’re doing really well! I didn’t think you were going to make it.”  But I did. After, she instructed me to sit in the hallway outside her office where she got on the phone to the radiologist and said, “I have a thirty-five year old patient,” then said my name, and then said, “There’s something in the MRI that looks like a tumor, but it’s lighting up one way but not another.”  Horrified, I just sat there.  I went to the lobby and waited for my boyfriend to pick me up. At one point, the tech walked by and said, with fear in her eyes, “Oh no! They already called you back in?”  And I said, “No, I’m just waiting for my ride.”  And she looked very relieved with that answer, which didn’t make me feel any better. I had to wait through the weekend for a follow up ophthalmologist appointment to get the results (the MRI was on a Friday), so I spent a few days agonizing over what the MRI would actually say and hating that woman for not shutting her door.  In the mean time, I went and had my taxes done the next day, a Saturday (only to find out that I owed money – bullocks!), and my boyfriend came over that same night. The plan was to watch a movie and get some take out.  However, I was a bit off. And by “off”, I mean that I was having short-term memory issues a lá Memento.  I couldn’t remember anything that had happened over the past few days and kept asking the same questions over and over again; anything I could remember felt like something I had dreamed.  It was really disconcerting, and I think it freaked out my boyfriend, because the next day I was meeting some friends for brunch, and he kindly suggested, “Why don’t you have them drop you off at my place after?  I don’t think you should be alone today.”

Something that now strikes me as very funny but probably wasn’t funny at all for my boyfriend at the time was the Groundhog Day aspect of the scenario. Apparently, I kept forgetting about getting my taxes done and was asking, over and over again, “I had my taxes done?” “Am I getting money back?”  Then, I would say, “What?! I owe money?! How much?”  Later, my boyfriend said he had contemplated lying to me after a while because, “You got mad every time.”

I went to the ophthalmologist a few days later and was told that I’d had a stroke. I’m sorry, what?!  The last time I checked, I was thirty-five, not eighty-five.  This seemed really absurd to me.  I was too shocked to even be relieved that it wasn’t a tumor. The main conclusion of that appointment was that I had to see a neurologist, and getting in to see that guy was proving to be an act of Congress in itself.  In the mean time, I’d filled my sister in on what was happening. Her reaction was to book a ticket to come stay with me (apparently, I sounded a little batty every time I talked to anyone on the phone).

The next few days were a bit of a blur.  I was obviously not working but can’t really remember how I spent my time between doctor’s appointments. I remember that Elizabeth Taylor had died and that seemed to be on TV a lot and I was grateful I wasn’t driving to work every day, because my commute involves driving past Forest Lawn Cemetery, which I’m sure was a nightmare that week.  My boyfriend had some sick time and took a few days off towards the end of that week to spend with me. Those days were also a bit of a blur, but I remember that the weather was fantastic – the first warm summer-like days we’d had here.  I actually only vaguely remember the weather, but do remember commenting to my boyfriend, “It’s beautiful out!” and his response was, “Do you know how many times you’ve said that today?”  In my defense, it was an exceptionally lovely day (we still joke about that).

The day my sister arrived, she and I made grand plans of pedicures and sister bonding time, and she was going to come with me to all of my doctor’s appointments.  We picked her up at the airport and had a late breakfast. The rest of the day, she and I hung around my apartment while I made some follow up phone calls.  Then we headed out to a local restaurant for burgers. For some reason, at that point in the day, I was starving.  As soon as we sat down, however, my left arm started to feel weird.  It sort of went to sleep, as though I had been leaning on it, which I hadn’t been. I knew from my “What to look for if you just had a stroke” paperwork that this was not good news. I also knew that if I mentioned it right then to my sister, she would march me out of there and I would have to sit in the ER for eternity feeling really, really hungry.  So I waited until our burgers arrived, ate half of mine and then said as casually as I could, “My arm feels kind of weird.”  My sisters’ big brown eyes became even bigger and she gripped the side of the table and sort of half-shouted, “Don’t panic!”  Then she nearly tackled a bus boy looking for our waitress to bring us the check. We left there and hung out in the emergency room (where my sister kept cracking me up saying she was a “nervous pee-er” and running to find the bathroom, only to get lost every time) and ended up with a gem of a doctor who found the whole tale of woe to be as absurd as we did.  His conclusion:  “I hate your insurance. They’re the worst. You need to have a lot of tests done, and the only way we’re going to get around this is to admit you and run them all now.  You’ll be out of here by tomorrow!”  At that point, it seemed like the best, most logical thing anyone had said since this nonsense had started.  They ran a few tests that night, and then brought me up to the Stroke Ward (surprisingly, at least ten times more depressing than the Cancer Ward), where I would spend the next five days.

A few days later, my very worried and overbearing parents showed up to smother me with love and anxiety.  My sister tried to convince them not to come out, but resistance was futile at that point.  She said, “I’m so sorry. I tried.”  This was also the first time my parents were going to meet my boyfriend, the first relationship I’ve had since my divorce.  My parents can be a little bit antiquated and out of it sometimes, but I have to say, they were very supportive of me through my divorce and have done well convincing me that they mean it when they say they just want me to be happy. Still, I’m sure it’s a little weird for everyone involved.   Also weird and quite unfortunate was the first meeting.  In hindsight, it wasn’t so bad, but I was half asleep at the time so I had been wishing I had more control over it.  My parents arrived on a flight that got them in at midnight local time, and then they took a Super Shuttle to my apartment, a place they’d never been before.  They got to my apartment at 1 AM, drank a bottle of my wine, and then got up at 6 AM to get the hospital bright and early with my sister. After a week of being here on her own, my sister was “in charge” and getting a little drunk with power. Apparently she told them, “I have a routine. There is no time for coffee.  I leave here at 6:30 on the button, and if you’re not with me, you have to find your own way there.”    On this particular night, my boyfriend, who was wonderfully sweet and supportive throughout this entire ordeal, had stayed with me through the night. On a few nights, he curled up in the bed next to me until I fell asleep, so I wouldn’t be alone.  He would usually get up and go home at some point in the middle of the night, but on that night, he just happened to stay the entire time.  Unfortunately, we were awoken by my parents and my sister barging into my hospital room at 6:45 in the morning….and that was how I had to introduce my parents to my boyfriend.  Of course, we were both fully dressed and in a hospital bed, so it’s not like anything was going on. And even if it was, I’m an adult for crying out loud!! Still, it was awkward. They all handled it well, but I had been hoping for better circumstances than that for a first meeting. Although, I have to say, I think my parents just generally found the whole thing endearing. I can only imagine that when you have a child who lives far away (no matter how old), and is going through something traumatic, if you can’t be there, you just want to know that they have people who care about them who are close by.  So the unfortunate first meeting may have been most fortunate after all – they left loving him. I’m afraid my mom may start texting him (I rue the day she got an Android and figured out how to use it) for no reason.

Over the next few days in the hospital, they proceeded to run all the tests they should have run over the previous week. CT Scans, EKGs, ultrasounds, etc.  It got out of hand with a Spinal Tap and something called a “TE Echo” which is a trans-esophageal echo, where they shove a camera down your esophagus to look at your heart valves from the inside. It was dreadful. I learned that, generally speaking, ultrasounds are the spa treatments of hospital tests. Compared to everything else they put you through, they’re almost enjoyable!    I had one ultrasound of my bladder and kidneys (after having been ignored by the system for a week, they all seemed to be making up for lost time with the amount of tests they were running).  By that point, I’d been in the hospital for a few days, and my sister and I were getting a little slap happy.  Ever since we were little girls, we’ve had that “sister thing” where we find something hilarious and get the giggles, even if it’s not funny to anyone else. After a point, all it takes is for her to look at me a certain way, and I will dissolve into a fit of laughter.  It is truly a gift, and I feel bad for any woman who doesn’t have a sister. Anyway, I’m not sure how I could have gotten through all that craziness without her there keeping me laughing.  When they brought me downstairs for the ultrasounds, she was standing next to me in the room saying something goofy, which made me laugh. The tech, a very sweet and earnest man named Brian, said, “I can allow many liberties while I’m doing these tests, but I’m afraid I cannot allow laughing.”  Suitably chastised, we each hung our heads and tried to avoid eye contact. Of course, it almost all fell apart when Brian said, “I’m going to have to have you roll over. I can’t get a clear picture here because you have a gas bubble.”  I bit my lip to the point of blood and squeezed my eyes shut because I knew if I even caught sight of her profile, I would have lost it.  My sister left the room for a moment, presumably to compose herself.  We are women in our mid-thirties and she is a mother of three, yet the words “gas bubble” will get us every time.  Sometimes it is the very stupid little things that help you keep your sanity in times of trouble.

The MRI they sent me for was also an MRA, and they focused on three parts of my body, with and without contrast.  It took two and half hours. When I got into the room, I hopefully and naively asked the Tech, “Is this an open air machine?” to which he ominously replied, “We don’t have an open air machine.”  And then he shuttled me into the tube. I immediately started to cry. My sister stood at the end rubbing my legs the whole time to help calm me down.  Thankfully, they started pumping me with Ativan, which made me doze after a while.    But two and a half hours!! Come on!!  I thought I was just being a baby because it felt that long, so it felt slightly better to know that I wasn’t just exaggerating in my own mind.

While I’m on the subject of things that really sucked, let’s talk about the TE Echo for a moment.  This is an ultrasound of sorts, but they have a camera that is attached to a very long tube that is shoved down your esophagus.  You have to be conscious for the process, because they need you to have a certain amount of reflexes so that you can swallow and help get this thing down your throat. From the moment they told me about this test, I was not ok with it. It sounded horrible.  But everyone assured me that I would be so doped up that I wouldn’t care.  In fact, I was even somewhat betrayed by my sister’s and my favorite x-ray tech, Sean. Sean was the guy who did all the bedside ultrasound exams and had done one of my heart (from the outside) just days before. For some reason, we both just loved him. He was on my floor a lot, and would stop in to say hello to us every time he walked by my room.  He popped in when he found out he would be the tech assisting the cardiologist during the TE Echo.  He was very casual about the whole thing, trying to convince me that I wouldn’t feel anything or even really know what was happening.  I believed him. After all, this was Sean, who we loved and trusted!

When the TE Echo began, there were about five people in my room: Sean, the cardiologist, and a few nurses. I was hooked up to all sorts of machines and they started pumping Valium into my IV.  I might be immune to that stuff, because I did not feel particularly relaxed or loopy.  I was apprehensive as they handed me a shooter cup of lidocaine gel that they told me to gargle with, to coat the back of my throat. To this moment, I maintain that it is physically impossible to gargle with gel, and it got all over my face and up my nose. Sean was standing next to me, trying to be helpful with this suggestion: “Pretend you’re shooting tequila!”  Not quite the same, my dear friend Sean, but thanks for the sentiment.  They put a plastic ring in my mouth to keep it propped open, at which point, I also lost the ability to shout anything in protest. So I tried to speak with my eyes.  This involved me trying to catch Sean’s attention by glaring at him.  He seemed to be strategically ignoring me.  My eyes almost popped out of my head when I saw the tube and camera, while they were casually dipping the camera in lidocaine gel.  At that point, if able to talk, this would have been my comment to Sean: “Dude!! Are you nuts?  You totally undersold this to me!!”  Alas, he was still steadily avoiding my gaze.  He had mad skills in that regard.  He must have a very nagging, pain-in-the-ass girlfriend or mother. Or both.  When they were done, I felt as though I had been raped in the esophagus and my throat really hurt. I think I fell asleep afterwards from all of the Valium.

A few weeks later, my boyfriend and I were taking a walk and I was lamenting this procedure. It was also right after I thought up the “raped in the esophagus” line and wanted to test it out. This is the conversation that followed:

Him:  You should look on the bright side.  If you ever lose your job, you will always have a future in porn.  Now you know you can deep throat.
Me:  But I hated it.
Him: But at least you can do it.

The TE Echo happened in the morning of what would become the most physically traumatizing day of my life.  The Spinal Tap (i.e., “lumbar puncture”) had been a few days before, and I had what is known as a “spinal headache” since the procedure. Apparently, this is common from a spinal tap or any kind of epidural. When you are poked in the spine with a giant needle, there are often leaks of spinal fluid afterwards.  This causes the spinal headache, and the only thing that makes a spinal headache better is lying flat and drinking tons of water (if these two things seem contrary, it’s because they are) to replace all the fluid that’s leaked or been removed. If you fail to feel better in a few days, it means that your spine is still leaking fluid and they need to do a “Blood Patch.” This is essentially an epidural of your own blood that they stick into your spine and, as my dad said, “it’s like caulking!” as they patch the leak with your blood. It’s a delicate procedure, performed by an anesthesiologist, and the timing of all the steps is very precise. From what I could gather it went like this: Step 1) Insert giant needle into spine; Step 2) Somehow find 15-20 ccs of blood and Step 3) use that blood in the giant needle for the blood patch.  It seemed that these things had to happen in exactly that order.  I say this because I, usually quite tolerant of pain and a model patient, almost had a breakdown. My head was pounding, to the point where I began crying and the anesthesiologist’s assistant started massaging the back of my head.  I asked if I could lie down until the last possible second, but the needle was already in my spine and I was cautioned not to move. Fearing paralysis, I assumed they meant business, so I didn’t argue (or move).    The nurses started to panic because, with me having been in the hospital for almost a week with a ridiculous amount of blood taken daily, they couldn’t find a vein that would yield the amount of blood they needed for the procedure. They began sticking me all over the place and there was blood everywhere (yet, stupidly, not enough in the vial where it needed to be).  I started to feel really nauseous and began sweating uncontrollably. I was hooked up to a vitals machine, and we all became aware that my blood pressure was rapidly dropping. I think I almost literally passed out from pain.  Luckily I fought against it and they were able to complete the process. I will say this – the human body is so weird. As soon as the blood patch was done, my head instantly felt better.  Like someone turned off a switch. I still had a bit of a headache, but I could actually sit up and function.  I was unexpectedly discharged that evening – and thank God!! I don’t think I could have physically handled any more tests after that Day of Days.

The upshot of all these tests and the hospital stay?  I had indeed had a stroke. In fact, I’d had a series of “mini strokes” due to 4-5 “mini clots” in my brain (the repeated use of the word “mini” makes me laugh – like they’re cute and little, like Mini M&Ms).  The reason for the blood clots? Apparently, I have a second auto-immune disease called APLS (anti phospholipid antibody syndrome).  Having one auto immune disease opens you up to the world of auto immune diseases – they tend to cluster together.  APLS causes blood clots.  Does this seem contrary to my ITP? Why, yes, indeed it does. As I said to my sister upon finding this out, “Are Mom and Dad first cousins?  I’m a Bleeder and a Clotter? What kind of genetic jack-assery is that?!”  Although, it’s actually entirely possible that I’ve never had ITP.  One of the symptoms of APLS can be a low platelet count (blood clots can absorb platelets).    The outcome? Blood thinners for a lifetime, which beats getting clots in your heart, brain, or lungs, but they’re not a lot of fun since they come with a plethora of dietary restrictions and it is recommended that you not drink alcohol at all while on them.  Anyone who knows me can probably guess how unacceptable I find this solution. But, again, it’s preferable to blood clots in my brain that cause strokes, or worse, in my heart or lungs, that could cause a more instant death. You do what you have to do in life, and it can always be worse.

I will now tie this extra long story back to my original musing about Darwin. Another symptom of APLS is chronic miscarriages (also, Coumadin causes gnarly birth defects, and if you are prone to blood clots, any type of birth control with hormones (i.e., most of them) is out of the question (another contrary and non-win aspect of this scenario)).  I find it interesting that my body will not let me procreate without some serious scientific intervention.  I am not supposed to add to the next generation – and why would I be?  I am riddled with disease!  It’s nothing so tragic that I cannot function, but also nothing that would help advance human kind from a physical standpoint.  I’ve never really had a strong desire to have children, but having the option taken off the table is a real bummer.  All I have to say is, my nephews and niece are super lucky because I will now spoil the crap out of them for the rest of my life in lieu of having my own children.  I wonder if they will ever acknowledge that or if they will just always think I’m weird.

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